I received a few blog comments lately that I feel need to be addressed.
I got one yesterday complaining that I didn’t publish their previous blog comments. The person asked if I pick and choose which comments to publish.
Of course I do.
It’s my blog, I can do whatever I want.
In regard to another unpublished blog comment, I need you to know that I am so sorry about your depressed friend but I am utterly unqualified to help anyone with their personal problems. It sounds like your friend needs professional help ASAP. I feel great compassion and sadness for anyone who is suffering, but I can’t take on any new people’s baggage right now since my own and that of my loved ones is fairly hefty. I’m not convinced that I wouldn’t add fuel to the fire anyway.
Finally, the few of you gentlemen who are seriously projecting romantic fantasies on me, please keep them to yourself. If you read this blog and watch my shows you don’t really know me and your courtship doesn’t flatter me, it makes me feel invisible.
Mostly, I want to say that this blog is for me and for my closest friends and family. If someone else gets something from it I’m really happy. I’ve been enriched by meeting Pat, Jay, the Irish sisters and so many of you I don’t have the finger strength to list, but I’m ultimately doing this out of enlightened self-interest. I make no apologies for what I write or don’t write, publish or don’t publish. I have my reasons but I don’t feel any obligation to share them here. I also make no claims to being anything other than an unlucky gal who writes good. I am moved and flattered by the kind words on this blog but I do what I do in order to have a great life, not to be good. I don’t want to be good.
In fact sometimes I want to be bad.
My mother recently told me a story about me as a 4 or 5 year old. I apparently said “Mom, I’m very special - there’s no one else that is like me in the whole world- but everyone else in the world is also very special in the same way, so I guess that makes me not so special after all.”
I haven’t learned much since then I guess cuz that makes perfect sense to me.